"It is good for me that I was (and am) afflicted, that I might learn your (God's) statutes." (Psalm 119:71 ESV).
"So to keep me from becoming conceited because of the surpassing greatness of the revelations, a thorn was given me in the flesh, a messenger of Satan to harass me, to keep me from becoming conceited." (II Corinthians 12:7 ESV).
Oh how great and lavish and so undeserved is the love and grace of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. He does not leave us or forsake us to our own sins, vices or behaviors, but rather, as a Father with their child, he doth tenderly care for us and nurture us through all the days and seasons of our lives...whether they be good and filled with good health, joy and prosperity or with affliction, suffering and want. There is ONE thing that can remain true in both sets of circumstances...we can still experience joy. We can experience joy because God has so favored us that he wants to prune as as a plant so that we might blossom into something beautiful and useful for him and his Kingdom. Our suffering is not for God's pleasure or our pain; but rather, for God's glory and our good. AMEN!
Due to what has happened only recently, I feel (and I mean this sincerely and with no humor intended) that I have lost a part of my mind...the part that affects how I think and function. It is hard to explain unless you have been through it but it is an experience common to people with brain tumors, traumatic head injuries and even Bi-Polar Manic Depressive Disorder, which I have only recently been diagnosed with and have started treatment for.
I do need to find a specialist who understands and treats Bi-Polar disorder as my life has been the most challenging it has since I first was diagnosed and began treatment for the tumors. What is happening to me is called "rapid cycling" and it is just horrible to live with but please, I ask you please, do not pity me or feel sorry for me as I am not trying to elicit that response from you. Although I hate how I feel and I do...I want to give glory to my Lord and boast in him for his grace is sufficient, his love fully satisfies, his mercy covers my sins, and he is teaching me a joyful endurance in him and because of him through this time.
It has slowed me down significantly which is why I will no longer be posting regularly on my blogs and social media sites such as Facebook. Twitter or LinkedIn. At least not for now as I just can't. To even create and type this blog post was a major chore for me...something i could have easily done in the past in a matter of a few minutes, now took me much longer and effort to accomplish.
So, if I can impart any word of encouragement or comfort to you as my reader it is this...
- Nothing...No One or Nothing...can or ever will separate us from the love of God (Romans 8:39)
- All suffering is good suffering if it is prayerfully yielded to our loving Heavenly Father and it causes us to personally praise him as well as share our praise of him with others. (Genesis 50:20), and "For I know the plans I have for you, declares the LORD, plans for welfare and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope." (Jeremiah 29:11 ESV).
So God bless and keep you in his tender love and care. Please know how much I love, care for and appreciate each and every one of you as my friends and "followers."
Amazed by his Grace,
Harold
Philippians 1:21
haroldcameron56@gmail.com